Studying, Stress and a Subluxed shoulder

Hey guys,

My apologies for not uploading sooner, I have had a kinda crazy month! College for the last month has been nuts! Between RAG week (where I was really boring and didn’t even go out once) and study my time-table has been pretty full. I also managed to injure myself at work so that’s always fun.

So during the summer I had two exam repeats as I failed them the first time I took them. That couple with a bad ending to my au-pairing experience left me in a bad mental space. I felt worthless and genuinely didn’t want to wake up in the morning after falling asleep. I got into a bad routine of not going to bed until around 2 am and not waking until around noon. I would then spend the entire day sitting on my bed on my laptop studying for my exams. It was bad and it was a contributing factor to how I was feeling. Things were also not good with my parents at the time, partially due to them not liking my then boyfriend and partially due to me coming home early from Spain. All these factors added up led me to have daily panic attacks and to my self harming. Obviously, none of this was ideal. This led me to go on and fail one of the repeats I had to sit. Once again, not ideal. I found that once my boyfriend and I broke up in October, I felt much better. I was able to focus more on uni and work and my mental health improved. I was on an upwards stretch until I hit a bump recently. The month of March is crazy for me, I had an exam on the 9th, an assignment (3000 words) due for the 27th and a Spanish test worth 30% of this years grade on the 29th. It’s a lot of pressure by itself but when you have your mother on your back EVERY FRIKIN DAY it makes things even worse. Recently things haven’t been so great for me. Stress levels are high and I started self harming again. I haven’t in about three weeks and the marks on my arms are healing but they are still there.

I haven’t told most people about how I’m feeling, mostly just one of my best friends, who I regret telling because he gets so worried about me. I don’t know why I’m writing this but it feels kinda good to let it all out and put an order on things. I still haven’t told anyone about this blog so I won’t be spilling my secrets to my friends and family. I have 5 exams coming up at the end of April/ start of May and I am absolutely terrified of failing. I can’t take much more of feeling like a failure, despite me spending nearly all my free time in the library since this semester began.

In addition to this, I haven’t been able to keep up going to the gym which is my stress relief due to injury. At the start of February, I sprained my ankle coming out of a lecture. It took about 2 weeks to recover and I was looking forward to being able to go to the gym. One Monday at work, I was all excited to go to the gym the following day when I was carrying a crate of beer and suddenly I had a crippling pain in my shoulder. I immediately dropped the crate (Onto a keg so it didn’t have far to go) and went in search of my manager. When I found her, I explained what happened and she was all concerned but there was  nothing she could do and she just reckoned I’d pulled a muscle. The following day, I went to the medical center in college and went to see the physio who diagnosed my shoulder as being subluxed. She said basically, my collar-bone popped out-of-place and back into place spontaneously. Fun right? Basically its just been one thing after another recently. I now have an infected finger cause stress is quite literally making my body break down. Yayyy.. Another prescription!

Anyway, Thanks for reading guys,

See you soon,

Kathy

Valentines day and RAG week

Hey guys,

This week is RAG week in UCC, my university. Every year in colleges across Ireland there is a week dedicated to raising money for charity, its official name is Raise and Give week. That being said, a lot of people use it as an excuse to start drinking early and keep drinking for a week. Both bars on campus start serving at 2 pm, there is music, DJs, bands and other various events throughout the week. The different clubs and societies are running various events for the week, the Commerce Society are holding a Nearly Naked Mile (American Pie flashbacks anyone). There are also events such as a wedding, The Rose of UCC, a Karaoke night  and a drinking competition called the Iron Stomach. All in all, there is a pretty good buzz around campus (once everyone wakes up :P)

Coincidentally, Valentines always falls in the middle of RAG week. This year, I am single, but I do have a Valentine ❤ I started seeing someone a few months ago and he agreed to be my Valentine when I saw him last week so I have plans with him this evening 🙂 Because he isn’t my boyfriend, I didn’t get  him a card and present or anything and am now kinda regretting it.. I’ll be freaked if I didn’t get him anything and he has something for me :O Advice anyone?? 🙂

Sorry for the short post, I now have to speak to my friend in Spanish for an hour!

Thanks for reading,

Kathy ❤

4 weeks in..

Hey guys,

How is everyone dong today? Me? I’m a zombie.. This is what happens when I get 5 hours sleep after working an 8 hour shift but apparently going to college  and getting an education is important? Who knew right 😛 Ok, I joke, I just found it really hard to peel myself from my bed this morning. I have been pretty good at keeping up on my college work this semester, that being said I do only have about 11 hours a week.. 🙂 Yay me!

I have developed a couple of good habits during the start of this semester. Firstly I was back in the library on my first week. You might say ‘But it’s the first week back, what do you have to be doing on week 1?’.. Last year, I would have agreed with you, as I was so busy over the Christmas break, I had loads of research to do with regards to my Erasmus next year, if you haven’t read my last post, The Alicante Diaries: Flight Booked, please be a bae and check it out!! I had to research classes and calendars and look for accommodation and all that fun stuff. I think coming to the library week 1 really set me up for the semester. I now have my favorite computer in the whole building (trust me its a big library) and I’m able to come here and study and charge my phone as its right next to a plug! Winning at life so I am! 😛

So another good habit I have developed has been to start printing my lecture notes! Last semester a number of the lecturers were really sound and brought the printed notes to class but this semester it’s up to us, so I decided I’d better be a good student and print things! Today alone I spent about €15 on notes, a fancy accordion type folder and a mini stapler (because every girl needs a pink mini stapler)!! I can use these notes now to make me focus and keep my attention during class as opposed to spending my time on Facebook… I used to bring my laptop to college but it’s such a brick that I decided that I didn’t really need it this semester and my back is thanking me for it 🙂

In addition to these things, going to the gym has been such a great thing to keep me going! I must admit that I haven’t been going quite as much as I should have been in the last week due to an old knee injury reappearing and being a general pain in the ass but hopefully I’ll be back in business by Thursday!

Anyway, I have a lecture in 25 minutes so I should probably go and get myself organised!

Write soon guys,

Thanks for reading,

Kathy ❤

 

The Alicante Diaries: Flight booked

Hey guys,

So as I am studying Spanish in University, next year, I am doing an Erasmus which means I will be going to Universidad de Alicante next year. I am really excited and I thought I might as well chronicle my adventures while I’m there.

In August, I, along with 3 class mates and another 4 people from UCC will be arriving in Spain for the year. We are required to take classes that to relate to our course, so as I am a business and Spanish student, I need to balance my subjects equally between Spanish and various business subjects, be they law, economics, tourism or anything else related to the business world that I find interesting and can make it to. I also need to take some Spanish language classes which will be interesting seeing as my Spanish is currently pretty dismal.

A friend of mine is in his 4th year of Spanish in the same Uni as me and he spent last year studying in Mexico which is really cool. I was considering going to Mexico but if I was there, I would be there for the year. whereas when in Spain, I can come home for Christmas and the odd weekend here and there if I really wanted to. It’s a bit more peace of mind being only 3 hours away as opposed to being on the opposite side of the world.

I have already begun looking at places to stay when I go over! I have my flight booked for August 29th and the excitement is starting!

Write soon with more updates,

Thanks for reading,

Kathy ❤

 

New year, New me?

At the risk of sounding totally cliché, this year is going to be my year. I may be slightly late with this post, I do realize that it is indeed more towards the end of January than the beginning but better late than never I suppose (I really am killing this whole cheesy thing today right?)

The last few months were pretty rough for me, I broke up with my boyfriend in October, in the end it came down to the distance being the biggest problem, I was overrun by college work and so stressed out about exams and assignments, I was working all the hours that were given to me in an attempt to save money and even this week, I found out some bad news about my Gran.

Despite all these setbacks, I refuse to let them get to me. I was in a bad place a few months ago, very few people know but at one point I felt so low and shitty about myself, I tried pulling apart a razor blade to use to harm myself. I had a bad 2016, a lot like most people it seems. Some nights I went to bed and hoped that I wouldn’t wake up the following morning. In some ways, I feel like my breakup was the best thing that could have happened to me. Yes it was awful to lose someone who I loved but since then, my confidence has been boosted, I feel more confident in myself and I have grown into the strong, independent woman who I always knew I could be. I took the best stab at my exams as I could. I worked really hard for them all semester long and for the first time since starting Uni, I don’t think I failed any of them! Work has its own challenges, crazy colleagues, intense hotel guests and a workplace that could have its own soap opera!  But hey, its providing me with a somewhat steady income! 🙂

Since the start of 2017, things seem to have fallen into place somewhat, I paid off some of my college fees, I reached a major milestone in my savings and I even managed to have some money left over to spend on myself in the sales! 🙂 I have begun going back  to the gym since going back to college too. No this is not a New Years resolution, it is something I promised myself I’d do long before the beginning of January. My justification of it, I am moving to Alicante, Spain in August and I want to look hot in a bikini on the beach.. Shallow? Maybe.. But its working for me! 😛 In addition to the gym, I have tried starting to eat more healthily.. This is the bit I struggle with a bit more, I have a massive sweet tooth and I love me some food.. Any hints, tips or advice on how to stick to clean eating would be greatly appreciated! This year is going to be the year I reinvent myself, into a person I am proud to be and I plan on documenting every moment of it!

As always, thanks for reading,

Write soon,

Kathy ❤

Something not college related

Hey guys,

Wow it feels nice to sit down and write something that I am not going to be graded on! I should be writing an essay on right-wing politics in Ireland but when you end up stalking the LinkedIn page of one of your sources I think its time to take a break… Right?

How has everything with you guys been? For me, things have been kinda tough recently.. College is absolutely kicking my ass! I have so many hours, assignments, exams and study to do I spend all my time when I’m physically in college doing work. This semester I promised myself that this would be the term I get fit, that I would work out a couple of times a week and get my body all toned and into shape.. Wanna guess how many times I’ve been so far? Ahh go on, guess.. I’ve been to the gym exactly zero times so far this semester. Way to go Kathy right 😛 (Oh and if you guessed zero, way to go you!)  So in an attempt to counteract my non-existent gym routine, I downloaded a pedometer onto my phone. So despite me not getting a chance to go to the gym at all, I do get in some exercise and some exercise is better than no exercise! 🙂 Ok so back to my pedometer, basically it is an app on my phone that counts the amount of steps I take in a day. Ideally you are supposed to take 10,000 steps a day. I usually like to aim for around 12,000. Today my total has been 7,720 and given that it is almost 9pm I don’t think I’ll be doing that many  more. Tomorrow though should be better as I am going for a haircut, which I have to walk to from college and then plan on having a wander around some of the shops before making my way back down to campus to study 🙂 Yeah I really do have such an exciting life..

So as in addition to college I got a job! Whoop whoop 😛 I literally spent the entire college year last year trying to get on and no luck so when I finally got one, I was delighted! I am working in the bar of a hotel near my house which is a bit of a struggle at times but most of the time I really enjoy it! Its such good experience to have on a CV and it can be fun in addition to that! 🙂 I work with a great bunch of people and we manage to entertain each other during our shifts.

Between college and work, I don’t have time for much else! I am a serious Netflix addict and I genuinely just don’t have time for it at the moment (Sorry Netflix), anyone else super excited for the Gilmore Girls reunion??

Something else that gave under the pressure of not having any time was my relationship. Myself and my boyfriend of 9 months broke up due to not seeing each other. We were in a long distance relationship with him living in one city and me living and studying in another, not exactly ideal when the one fight we had been about us not seeing each other. We are trying to be friends but it is damn hard..

Anyway in positive news, we are actually getting a proper autumn for the first time in a long time! Its crisp and bright, the trees are fabulous colours and leaves are falling naturally as opposed to a storm coming and them being there one day and gone the next. I always get slightly obsessed with taking pictures, especially of the sky,this time of the year! snapchat-1359477038

Ok so I think I’ve let my brain run away with me enough for one day! I’ll talk to you guys soon!

Thanks for reading!

Kathy ❤

Back to Normality

Hey Guys!

So I have been really bad for updating recently! Life had been kinda hectic, the good kind of hectic though! 🙂 Last year in Uni I signed up to be a Peer Support Leader (PSL). So this is a program that matches a group of incoming freshers with a student who is usually doing the same course as them. So I am doing Commerce and Hispanic Studies so I was linked the this years 1st years of Comm Spanish! I had so much fun giving them orientation! I gave them a campus tour, played icebreakers with them, got them registered and basically just had a bit of craic with them and introduced them to college life in the best way (even if I do say so myself..) I had another few groups in the week and a half leading up to going back to college. It was a great way to ease myself back into the early mornings and it reminded me of how much I really miss college and of how beautiful my campus is!

So a normal college year for me consists of 65 credits with most subjects weighing 5 credits each (I’m taking 25 credits of Hispanic modules this year :O). So in addition to my usual 60 credits, I am carrying forward a subject from first year so I will have a 65 credit year which is going to be kind intense! I’m happy to be back and the 65 is a lot better that just repeating a 5 credit module which is just 2 lectures and a tutorials a week for 12 weeks!

Do I’ve any tips for going back to college/ school??  Well here is a few I have tried out this year in the hopes of trying to get my life together! 🙂

  1. Make yourself out a timetable! add in study time, gym time, tutorials, practicals, lectures the whole lot! I spent a good two hours today trying to organize and sort out my timetable, make a typed out version and input it all into google calendars.. and gave all my subjects different colors.. 😀
  2. Get a planner. I didn’t have the money to buy a new fancy one so I made one myself! I got a cute notebook from Tiger for about €3, a pack of colored pens and decorated it myself! Even just being back at college for a few weeks, I know that it is going to come in handy in my attempt to stay organised
  3. Prepare your lunch the night before. so  I am the worlds worst at doing this. I am gluten intolerant so if I want to bring a roll to college, I have to make it the morning of as it is too dry to make the night before. So this week I decided I was going to try to bring a lunchbox of fried rice with me and heat it up in college! It really worked and its something I’m going to start bringing much more!
  4. Makeup – This might not apply to everyone but I always feel much more put together and ready to take on the day when I have on a face of makeup. That being said I’m never prepared enough in the mornings to do it so I bring my makeup with me and put it on between/ before/ after my first lecture so I am ready to go! I also go straight from college to work some days so I need to have my makeup done!

Do any of you guys have any tips for going back to school/ college/ life in general??

Talk soon,

Thanks for reading,

Kathy ❤